The words of my cousin Adam. He’s the one cousin out of about 75 that I talk to more than anyone. He’s 26 and he’s autistic. It was his soulful voice that made me smile. It doesn’t matter how long time has gone between when I’ve seen him or talked to him, he remembers. He remembers and immediately breaks into song. A little Bob Seger for the soul.
But after the smile fades, my sadness returns. It seems there is way too much of that this year. It’s more just than a loss of a family member. Aunt Edith was my great aunt. She outlived all of her nieces on my Grandma’s side, including my mom. She was an amazing woman. I did not get a chance to meet her until I was a legal adult. It was like being greeted by a grandmother I no longer had and had longed for. She brought me in and loved me as if she had known me my whole life. I remember always thinking I hoped that I could be like her in so many ways: her love of God, her love of her husband my Uncle Don, being able to offer advice and wisdom to her grandchildren as I had the privilege of her sharing with me, her love for gardening, and being a good cook. I will miss her maple candy. I remember when mom asked me to write to her and ask for some. I did…..I didn’t think I would get the box out of my mom’s hands when it came in the mail! I can only hope that I live life with zest like she did and stay as spry as she was. Aunt Edith was an amazing but more I am thankful that God gave me the time I had with her. I’m sad Alice doesn’t remember her but am so thankful she got to meet her. What a wonderful moment in time to meet your great, great aunt! RIP Aunt Edith. I will miss you.
And by the way…… I’m get a little tired of turning pages in my life. This is enough loss for one year. Now time to go honor Carroll.